I saw this video and listened closely. It grabbed my attention and made me think about a lot of things in my life. You see, right now I feel like my life is all over the place. I'm happy in a lot of area's and very unhappy in some other key area's. I'm at the point where I'm starting to believe that I've given too much power to friends and family. What I mean by this is that I often let people (or one individual) determine whether or not I'm happy or unhappy. I've given these people the power to determine my mood and I shouldn't let people have such a tight grasp on my attitude or personality. Happiness is something that I must choose for myself...it's all up to me!
I feel like 2011 has been a stressful and unsuccessful year in more ways than one. On many levels I have achieved success but I've also lost many things (friends) that meant a lot to me. Heck, I almost lost my life 24 days ago (November 27). Me being held up at gun point and kidnapped changed my life forever. I haven't let this incident stop my forward progression but I have been taking the time to try and put my life in perspective.
I guess what I'm really trying to say is: I want to be happy and successful! More successful than I already am. I want to do away with the stress and the pain that people or life causes me and achieve more greatness! However, I want it to be my idea of greatness. Not what someone else wants to see me do or thinks I should do. I'm at the point where I just want to do me! When I finally make myself happy I know I will be able to make other's happy. Not that I yearn to make everyone happy (that's impossible), but I do want to make my loved one's proud and happy in my own way. For example: My son! I really want to make him proud and he's actually the one person that fuels my tank day in and day out. I feel like most people in my shoes would have given up a long time ago but my son continues to provide me with the strength and energy I need to keep striving. As well as God! I have plenty of faith and I know God wants me to prosper. I will prosper!
Anyhow, I guess I've used this post to vent and get some things off my chest. After all this is my blog and I can use it for therapeutic reasons. There's gotta' be someone else in this world feeling close to, or the exact same way as I am. I can't possibly be alone.
Lastly, 2012 will be here before you know it and things are already looking challenging for me. There are some major changes I must make in this coming year and I just pray that God will see me through them all. I've always been up for a challenge but some of the changes I wanna make will change the very life that I've known for the past 5 to 8 years. It's kind of scary but I know I must do something soon. For myself. For my son. For my family. For my happiness!
I claim that 2012 will bring me clarity and more happiness than I've ever known. 2012 is going to be better than 2011 for sure! I won't let it be anything less than stellar!
May your 2012 be just as prosperous! I wish you all the best!
Watch the above clip and be inspired!